If you don't want to read it's ok, I just want to rant in my journal. better to say it out loud than keeping it


SICK.
I'M ALMOST SICK.

almost got sick with finishing that card assignment
last night I worked like a train, trying my best to finish the rest of 31 cards but I can do 20 only. I don't count the Jokers in, because I know I won't have time to make them


actually it would be better if I can finish the rest 11, but the deadline and my physical condition disagree.


MY HEAD HURTS
MY EYES HURTS
MY HAND HURTS
MY BACK HURTS
last but not the least, EVEN MY LEGS HURTS, SAT FOR HOURS FINISHING THE CARDS BEFORE THE *oh-too-much-to-do-all-the-52-in-two-weeks* DEADLINE
and I never feel bad like this before


and that time is around 08.30 - 09.00 A.M. in the morning
working like a stupid train for around 12 hours WITHOUT SLEEP
12 HOURS NON-STOP WORKING ON CARDS, with 20 cards + BACK DESIGN OF THE CARD with messy-and-less-details coloring


my mom told me not to overdo it, last night she made me a delicious coffee so that I didn't get sleepy, and fortunately it worked
and when I said that I can't help to finish them all, she told me to stop working on them
she said it was the lecturer's fault for giving not enough time
and I had finished at least 4/5 from 5/5 in total, and that's enough


so then after that she accompany me to a printing shop and I met my friend-the one who earlier said that I put quality on top of quantity to finish the cards
he said that he finally done all the 52, but he forgot to color one card. and that's enough for him, he is also tired to do them all. no more.


I printed my 41 cards, and went to college. I arrived there at 00.30 P.M.
my another friend told me from what she chat with the lecturer via text message that he is available from 12.00- 01.00 pm to get the assignment done
but what do I had there? he was already GONE


in fact he is available from 11.00 to 12.00
HOLY CRAP, FALSE INFORMATION, THEN?

so finally I submit the cards to another art & design lecturer



quality vs quantity
my friend who I met on the printing place cheered me up when I complained about my unfinished cards
'your quality is much better than mine. I win in quantity, you win in quality'
thanks, buddy you made me feel better a lot


and guys, what do you think about this? good quality but incomplete or less quality but complete, which one do you prefer? will I have a good mark with no 11 cards done?
*sorry, I'm getting paranoid now*


and I planned to re-color again from the autumn until the winter section, fixed the messy and not-detailed coloring, + finished the 11 cards +2 Jokers
WITH NO DEADLINE OF COURSE

do you think it is worth if I opened a pre-order for my custom deck cards once I done with them all?

my mom give me suggestion to make it into business, who knows someone is interested
and if I do, I can do it in Indonesia only. sorry guys m(_ _)m



now my body is still like a dead person, and I'm soo sleepy.
fortunately the mid-term for tomorrow is the easiest one
please wish me luck



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